Sometimes people will take their anger out on whoever is available. Today I got blamed for a pressure ulcer. Sure pressure ulcers are inexcusably the cause of bad nursing care, but not one nurse. Sometimes I think I take my irritation at anything, maybe even my own laziness out on the dog. I get mad at him when he's hyper and doing something overly dog that I hate like licking me or sniffing my butt or crotch. Sometimes instead of push or toss him away it's more like a kick or a rather hard swat. I need to control myself more. I fear it could one day come out on my child as if my dog is not bad enough. I witnessed some very calm very controlled parenting while in California. I don't think I am that way at all when a child misbehaves. It resulted in a much more positive response by the child than I have ever gotten or usually see. It was like the parent's ability to control moved aided the child's ability to control. I think I'll need a lot of humility and dependence on God to overcome this one in myself.
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